Just Meli

New Obsession

justmeli — Mon, 17 May 2010 15:54:49 +0000

Seriously, let’s talk about the kids NEW obsession.

First it was Zhu Zhu Pets. Mind you, they are now all piled in a corner, never ever getting played with. NEVER… I’ll give them credit where credit is due, I am sure they occasionally may glance at them while walking past them, but I haven’t heard one peep from them in months. ( if you own any you know what I mean by peep…)

Now on to the new obsession. As I write this I am thinking to myself, how long exactly will this one last?

Silly Bands Yes you heard me… SILLY BANDS.

I said to my sister the other day, who the hell sits there and thinks of these things? Really… And man are they getting PAID!!

If you are not familiar with Silly Bands Let me just enlighten you… They are these rubber/plastic bands shaped like animals, princesses, sports equipment, fairy tales, dinosaurs, etc. etc., that the kids wear on their wrists like bracelets. They exchange them, give them to friends, break them, fling them, whatever they can possibly do with these silly bands, they do. ( Kinda remind of of the friendship bracelets we use to sport as kids)

You can purchase these cute lil novelties for about 4.99 per 24. Some places charge you a lil more, some places maybe a lil less. That is if you can find them.

We walked into Toys R Us yesterday and thought we hit the mother-load, so to speak. There right in front of us was a huge display of them. YIPPIE!! Let’s DIG! Come to find out there were only 4 different kinds, only one of which the kids didn’t already have. Oh wait, make that two, but honestly the kids aren’t that obsessed yet that they would want country and western, right??

So yet another obsession for the kids to spend our money on. Really, I wonder how long this craze phase is going to last. I’m a single mother now, I am torn between making my kids happy and paying the bills… lol…. hmmm…

SILLY BANDS…. will you be the death of me?? I doubt it , but you have already put a nice big chunk in my wallet. Thank you.

A Drawer With Your Name On It Random Thoughts

justmeli — Fri, 07 May 2010 23:45:46 +0000

when you get home there is a drawer waiting with your name on it

Once you fill that drawer there are more where that one came from

Fill them up Quickly Hurry Don’t look back

Your taste in women is greatly improving

Cuddled on the couch watching Housewives

Addicted I’m sorry

Reality t.v shameful but soooo much fun lol

A green poof to match your green toothbrush

Deodarant and underwear is all you need

So much happiness

The laughter the smiles

I only need you

I only want you

you complete me

When you say you love me I know it to be true

No second guessing

Happiness is our’s

Love joins us as one

My lover

My friend

I feel safe in your arms

Guide me

Love me

Hold me

There is a drawer with your name on it waiting for you to come home

Everyday

justmeli — Thu, 06 May 2010 00:20:43 +0000

I remember the day I first laid my eyes on you.

In the Park. Sitting on the bench.

Watching me.

Walking toward you, hesitant.

I remember the strangest thing about that moment.

You playing with my hair clip. I know weird. Right?

I remember the best thing about that moment.

You leaning in to kiss me goodbye.

A car full of screaming kids next to us.

Watching us.

I’ll never forget that day.

Not as long as I live.

It was the first day of the rest of my life.

Although I didn’t know it then…

You know, I’ve always heard that you will look back on your life, and you will remember certain moments. Certain moments that will turn out to be turning points in your life. That’s how I feel about that moment in time. It was a moment in time, that transformed my life. That moment. The first time I saw you smile at me, the way your eyes lit up. It wasn’t just a smile for smile’s sake. It was a smile that came straight from your heart. It was contagious. Since I’ve known you, I’ve smiled more then I thought possible. Sometimes so much that my face hurts from it. The laughter you have brought into my life, I cannot even measure, but I’m sure if I bottled it up to sell, I’d have enough to become a millionaire. Everyday since that first day, I love a little more, I laugh a little more, I cry a little more, I smile a little more, I’m loved a little more. Everyday since the first day I met you. I’ve fallen in love with you. Everyday, a little more.

Insignificant Lies

justmeli — Thu, 25 Feb 2010 04:43:50 +0000

What happens when the one person you have put all your trust into , lies to you? What do you do? How do you deal with it?

For some people that might be an easy thing to deal with. For me, it’s not. It sets in motion the wheels of time.

All the lies I have been told in the past.

The lies that some may consider insignificant. Lies that may actually mean something very real and different to someone else.

It was a stupid little lie. Insignificant. To you.

To me. Cast the shadow of doubt.

I wont allow this to break us, but it has bent my reality.

No more naivety. Eyes wide open. Heart guarded once again.

insignificant |ˌinsigˈnifikənt|adjectivetoo small or unimportant to be worth consideration : the amount required was insignificant compared with military spending | no detail is insignificant.• (of a person) without power or influence.• meaningless : insignificant yet enchanting phrases.

lie 2 |laɪ| |lʌɪ|nounan intentionally false statement : Mungo felt a pang of shame at telling Alicea lie | the whole thing is a pack of lies.• used with reference to a situation involving deception or founded on a mistaken impression : all their married life she had been living a lie.

I N D E P E N D E N T …….

justmeli — Tue, 19 Jan 2010 22:40:35 +0000

…….. One of the most frightening words I have come across as of late. It’s what I want, It’s what I crave. It also happens to scare the hell out of me. I’m waiting. I’ve been waiting. Almost there. The closer it gets the stranger I feel. I think the transition is what I am most frightened by. The transition from having someone take care of me to being the one taking care of three innocent little people.

I N D E P E N D E N T

Able to provide.

Able to do it on my own.

I N D E P E N D E N T

Something I have never been, but can’t wait to be.

Walking toward the light.

justmeli — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 17:28:35 +0000

I see the light. So bright and mesmerizing.

I am transfixed. Unable to look away from the brightness that it exuberates.

That is the reason.

The reason I refuse to walk backwards. Only forward. Toward the light.

It’s you that I walk toward.

It’s the laughter, the kindness, the love.

The friendship we have created and continue to watch flourish.

Nothing can compare.

Nothing.

Liking Me

justmeli — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 23:08:05 +0000

I sometimes hate who I am.

When I disappoint someone I love.

For no other reason, than being me.

I don’t know how to be anything but what I am.

I am not saying that I am perfect, not by any means.

I know I make mistakes.

I guess sometimes people cannot understand that we are not all the same.

We are individuals for a reason.

We all choose to handle things in our own way.

Sometimes that might not be the best way, or the only way.

But it’s our way.

I am trying very hard to keep my head up.

It’s a daily struggle.

Did I create this mess?

Maybe.

Probably.

I learn from my mistakes.

It doesn’t mean I will never make another one.

It only means I wont repeat this one.

Sometimes I get tired of being nice.

Sometimes I want to scream at the top of my voice.

Sometimes I want to get even.

Sometimes I want to inflict the pain that has been inflicted on me.

Then I realize, if I change that part of me, I will be changing the essence of me.

What does it change?

Nothing.

Change would mean a life full of hatred.

A life full of getting back at one another for something or other.

A life full of fighting.

I don’t want to fight anymore.

I don’t want to hate anymore.

I don’t want to be here anymore.

I want to be a woman that I can be proud of.

A mother that my children can be proud of.

I want people to look at me and say, she is the better person.

She stood her ground, but didn’t play dirty.

I have to look at myself in the mirror everyday.

I want to like what I see.

I want to like ME.

Heaven Sent

justmeli — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 16:47:00 +0000

I often wonder if people know their worth.

For instance, the way I see myself is far different then how others see me.

I personally am very hard on myself.

I look in the mirror, and I really don’t see anything but an average, aging, woman.

Don’t get me wrong. I know I have certain qualities and attributes that are appealing to others.

I guess they just aren’t as appealing to me.

You.

Have you ever heard something said, and think, wow, how true.

I have.

Heaven Sent.

The way I see it. The way I see you.

You joke, and say that you are, but do you really believe it?

You should.

Ewww… Stop it.

Your response.

Maybe not the way you see yourself, but definitely the way I see you.

What I see.

Sometimes you cannot see what you are to others.

You came to me without judgement.

Without wanting anything.

What you mean to me.

Something I never could have imagined.

The happiness you have brought into my life.

The smiles. The laughter. The love.

Waiting, Wanting, Believing.

The waiting can almost feel unbearable.

The wanting, never ceasing.

Believing makes it all worth it.

I believe in you.

I believe in us.

I believe you are Heaven Sent.

I love you.

(My angel with the broken Halo.)

Zhu Zhu Frenzy. Buyers BEWARE.

justmeli — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 15:16:09 +0000

ZHU ZHU PET HAMSTERS

Really, what’s all the fuss about? Did you question why millions of people were going crazy searching for these little fake furry pets?

Well, buyers beware.

They have got to be one of the cutest, funniest, adorable little toys out there!! And they are ADDICTIVE.

Just ask my sister-in-law who heisted one that was supposed to be a Christmas gift, to keep for herself, after she saw how much fun they were.

Same sister-in-law that spent hours and hours on Ebay bidding on the little darlings and their accessories.

ADDICTIVE

No joke.

They are absolutely adorable, and are so much fun to play with.

I am usually very skeptical about “holiday” must haves.

I tend to think it’s usually a lot of propaganda to get you to spend your hard earned money on a stupid toy that has no real value.

I have to say, these are one of the better must have Holiday season gifts.

Although I might have to call you crazy or slightly off if you go on Ebay and spend hundreds of dollars on 1 or 4 for that matter.

Wait it out. They will come back, pay 10.00 for one in a store in a few weeks. 50.00 for 4 of the little rascals.

Not that I don’t absolutely love Ebay, because I do. But some people take advantage of a situation to make lots of loot.

I say WAIT. Walmart, Target, K-mart, Even CVS.

Eventually everything get’s restocked…

They are worth the wait.

This is my life, and I’m going to start living it.

justmeli — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 14:48:12 +0000

I am just curious how many people just watch life pass them by?

Seriously. Is it just me? Or are there others out there just like me?

For a long time now that is exactly what I have been doing. Watching life pass me by, wondering why things were happening to me.

Well, so far I’ve come to the conclusion, because I have allowed them to happen to me.

Not so amazing after all ehh?

Today I’ve decided that I am going to start living my life. It’s mine after all isn’t it? It’s mine to live. So therefore I am going to start living it.

The way I want, the way I see fit, because, after all, it’s all about me. ( oh, and my kids too…lol)

No more looking back, trying to figure out where it all went wrong. Only forward. Full speed ahead.

It’s doesn’t matter where it all went wrong. It doesn’t even matter that it did all go wrong.

What matters is how I handle it, and myself through it all.

What matters is that I keep my children looking forward to their bright futures ahead.

What matters is that my children progress not digress.

What matters is that I progress not digress.

A family of four.

Smiling through it all.

Looking to the future with light in our eyes.

Positive attitude. Positive vibes.

A New Beginning.